Is everyone excited for Halloween? I’m half and half. I’m really excited about my costume but I really can’t be bothered going out. I’m going into town with my sister to the rock club who are having a Halloween party but I’d rather just stay in. If I hadn’t have spent so much time and effort on my costume, I really wouldn’t bother going out but since I have, it seems a waste of time to just not go. My sister is going as Little Bo Peep and I was going to go as Jessie the Cowgirl from Toy Story 2 but all the costumes I found were in the US and were so expensive so I had to think of something different. I eventually decided to go as a female version of Alex from A Clockwork Orange. I felt a bit stupid at myself when I figured out what I was going to be because since seeing A Clockwork Orange, I have always wanted to dress as a droog. I didn’t want to go as something spooky like a witch (I wouldn’t want to look like I need some decent acne treatment!) or a vampire although I think I would like to go as a zombie one year!

I hope everyone has a good and safe Halloween. I promise I won’t be up to any ultra violence tonight .

Like you know, Alex started college in September and he’s loving it. I have an interview at college on December 1st for the course I want to do and I’m really excited. I hope I can get on the course and if I do, I will start in January. I’m a little worried about being an older student at university when I eventually attend – I will be almost 26, I think – but my Dad went back to college at 55. He did a couple of courses on cad drawing to help him with his freelance work that he does. When people want an extension done on the house, he draws up the plans for them and it makes things a lot easier for him now he’s learnt CAD. If he can go back at that age, I’m sure I can go to university in my mid-twenties.

I’m doing really well with my healthy eating and exercise plan. I have lost almost 4lbs now and I have dropped a dress size in trousers. I feel amazing and I’m so excited to keep it up and see the results in the next month! Sometimes I do wish I had something like an appetite suppressant but rather than it curbing my appetite, it curb my cravings. I crave savoury foods more than anything where as before the diet, all I wanted as chocolate, cake, ice cream etc. Things like crisps, nuts, toast and fruit granola bars are my worst cravings right now. I’m sure I will get over it and I am not depriving myself of these things, I’m just trying to not eat half as much as my mouth would like me too! I want to lose another 1lb before November so I get below 140lbs so that goal should keep me away from the snack cupboard!