When we have weeks like I have where the diet has been non-existant and you know you’ve gained all the weight you worked so hard to lose, you really do think, “there has to be an easier way to do this”. Especially when you get email after email and see link after link about the best diet pills that are supposed to be a quick fix. I know some of them work because they are just an aid to dieting and exercise but I wouldn’t trust anything that made you drastically lose weight. Everyone knows you’ll just pile it all back on again once you stop taking them and start eating normally.  My theory is, if I wanted it that badly, I would work a lot harder to make it happen. Laziness doesn’t get you anywhere and good things don’t happen when your sat on your arse eating chocolate!

I seem to be coming across a lot of holiday rental websites recently. I found another one called Outer Banks rentals which covers North Carolina. At least I think it does. The website isn’t very well set out so I don’t really understand where I’m supposed to be going or where I do a search! Maybe its because I’m over tired. Plus Celebrity Big Brother is distracting me a little bit!

Yesterday I finally sent our passport applications off. We’re going to Spain in three months and we still don’t have our passports sorted. We planned on getting it all sorted out back in November but money wouldn’t allow us to. Thankfully mine and Meghan’s won’t take much longer than two weeks but Alex’s will take up to six. We still have ten weeks to go until we go away so everything should be fine. I hate flying but I’m really looking forward to going away. It will be nice to see some sunshine. It will be nice to be able to walk around in a t-shirt. It doesn’t get too hot at that time of the year but it will be just the right temperature.

There are so many things I need to sort out before we go away. For one thing, we don’t even have any suitcases! We also all need new clothes to take with us. And I need to get started on my new body before we go away. I’m hoping to get myself down to the gym next week or at least the week later if next week isn’t possible. I’m really looking forward to getting myself down to the gym. Its really quite cheap too and it’ll be costing me less than my smoking did!

I don’t know if we’ll be going away again for at least two-three years but Westgate reservations looks like a good place to book if your looking for somewhere to go in the US. I have only ever been to America once and it was the NYC which was amazing and I would definitely like to go back over some time.

Its a little vacant over here. Again. I’d even forgotten about my paid blogging and then when I looked about thirty minutes ago, I had loads and I’ve had to do three to catch up so that they don’t disappear. PayU2Blog have given me two extra posts for being a good blogger too which is great. Every little counts after all!

We’re having lots and lots of tantrums over here at the moment. Meghan has turned into this moody little girl that wants everything her own way and will scream and cry and shout if she doesn’t get it. I’m trying my very best to keep my temper and nine times out of ten I can just about do it. The only reason I try my best not to raise my voice or lash out (we don’t do smacking in my house. A tap on the hand if something very naughty happens but that’s rare) is because I don’t want Meghan thinking that its okay to do that. Because its not. You see all these kids on Supernanny who are totally out of control and hit their parents and their parents shout back at them and throw them about, and they wonder why their kids turned out like that. I’m not saying there are not times where I have lost my temper and shouted at her but I try my best to just walk away and have even one minute of peace to calm myself down. It usually works and then I have the patience to calm Meghan down too. I know the temper tantrums are going to get worse as she gets older so for now, I’d probably better appreciate how subtle they are now!

My plan for the rest of the day is to not come online. I’ve done everything I need to do this morning including blogging about five times between here and Love Duckie. Meghan has been a tornado in the living room so I need to clean that quickly before we go out for lunch. When I get back I need to walk Daxter and go to the shop for milk and bread. I then plan on getting the rest of the clothes dry that I washed yesterday and tidying the hall, stairs and landing. Tonight, I plan on getting in bed for 9PM to watch Celebrity Big Brother and then put The Dark Knight on. I bought it two days after Christmas along with Hellboy 2 (which I have watched) but I haven’t got around to seeing it yet. I saw it at the cinema and I can’t wait to watch it again. Hopefully my evening goes to plan because I’m looking forward to chilling out all night.

Every Christmas and birthday I mention that I really want a new watch. My last watch broke about a year and a half ago and since then I haven’t got myself a new one. This Christmas both Alex and Meghan got watches and I didn’t. The only person who actually wants a watch didn’t get one! I could wear Meghan’s watch to be honest. I have such tiny wrists that a children’s size wrist strap actually fits me but to be honest, I’m not really into Peppa Pig. I was looking online at watches the other night and I think I’ve found the one I want. I’m going to have to save for it though as it is a little bit more expensive than I would like. I found a website that sells Nooka watches but don’t you think they are really strange looking? I couldn’t wear something like that every day. Plus, I really can’t figure out how you tell the time on them! I need a watch with a proper face with proper numbers on or I get really confused and can’t tell the time. I have a problem with numbers. I can see what they are just I just can’t say them. Words are fine but numbers just get me. Anyway, hopefully by my twenty-third birthday in four months, someone will listen to me and buy me a watch!

Alex booked his theory test for his driving last week. Its scheduled for February 3rd at 5PM so he has a decent amount of time to study for it before he has to go. I’m hoping he passes first time because as soon as he has, he’s going to start driving lessons again. One of us needs to drive, badly. Getting Emelye is such hard work since her school is a twenty minute bus ride and then a ten minute walk away from where Alex lives and the buses are always so busy at that time of the day. Dropping her off again is even worse since the buses only run once an hour after 7PM. I need a car because I can never do a proper grocery shop as I can’t carry it all home. I have to go two/three times a week just to get food for over a few days. Also, most of the places I have seen work at are too far out for me to get to on a bus but would be very easy if I could drive. Alex’s mum has told him that when he passes, she will put him on her car insurance until he gets his own car so at least we will have access to one. Once Alex has done his driving, its my turn. I can’t wait! Hopefully I’ll be driving in the next twelve months.

You won’t believe the amount of times I get stopped when I’m happily shopping away by people selling things. The one I get mithered for the most is sales people trying to get me to swap my gas and electricity supplier over to them. Honestly, if I wanted to swap to your company, I would have done it by now! I’m not vey happy with the suppliers I have now but I’ll get around to changing in my own time. I just want to shop please! Another bad one is people selling life insurance and throwing their ‘great’ term life insurance rates at you. I’m twenty-two years old. I won’t be thinking about life insurance for at least ten years yet. So please, all you sales people; I know its your job but I really don’t care. The only sales person I have ever bought something off was a Sky Digital sales man and I approached him. Which says it all really.

Friday night, I was sat at my computer being extremely bored. I was so bored I even managed to spend thirty minutes on Facebook. Anyone who knows me knows that I can’t stand Facebook and I only go on it to check status updates and accept all the things people have sent me. I rarely update my own status because there are too many people who know me offline on there and I’d rather them not know my business to be honest. Its strange how I trust my online friends more than my offline friends. Anyway, back on topic! After realising that I had been on Facebook for that long and hadn’t gotten anywhere, I decided to find something new to do. I got a brochure from Dell a couple of days ago in the post. They send me them every few months for some unknown reason – I have never purchased from Dell even though I have looked several times. I went on their website to see what laptops they do because in the brochure it said that you can get a pretty basic, but decent one for only £350. I added all the little extras that I would like, like the integrated webcam and more hard drive and a HD screen. I was surprised at home much laptop memory you can actually get now. I know that makes me sound so behind with things but I really am when it comes to computers. When I was younger and I lived at home I used to be up to date with computers all the time because I was constantly looking online at the new products. The last laptop I had was only around 1028MB RAM or something ridiculous like that but now I could buy one better than my computer! So yeah, I’ve decided I really want a laptop. I miss having one upstairs so I can go online, watch films and listen to music in bed. I think after my camera, I will be saving for a laptop.

When you become a parent, if your unfortunate enough to not have an extra room to count as a playroom or the kids don’t have a big enough bedroom to even fit a single bed in – like I do – then I’m guessing your living room looks like mine does; infested with toys. Every evening (when I feel like it anyway), I tidy the living room floor of all the toys and try and fit in hooving it up too. It must take me at least thirty minutes to organise the toys so they all fit either in the toy box or at the side of the fireplace especially on a bad day when Meghan decides to get every single toy out. I would love Meghan to have a bigger bedroom or to have an extra room in the house where I can make a play corner for her. Houses are so small over here and so expensive. The house I live in now is rented and the rent is really inexpensive for anywhere in my area. For me to get a house even this size in the same area, the rent would go up by at least £100 a month. I really could use an extra room though – a dining room or another bedroom or even a bigger living room would be nice! It would be nice to think about moving in the next year or so but I’ll need to get myself a job first!