I went out last night Aimee’s birthday. Her birthday is not until Monday but Monday’s aren’t really the best nights to go out, haha. I had such a great time. And I didn’t smoke either! I’m really proud of myself for not smoking and I feel like I’ve passed the ultimate test. While I was out last night, I met Mani from the Stone Roses/Primal Scream and got my photo taken with him. He was DJ’ing at WA1 last night – where we were for a while – and we saw him in a pub as we walking to another bar. He was so nice and I can’t wait to see the photo properly. Aimee’s brother took the photo on his camera so I don’t have it yet. I’m guessing he’ll have a huge hangover this morning as he was drinking quite a lot (more than me and I drank a bit too much) so I probably won’t get it emailed to me today.

I keep meaning to look at some life insurance but I keep putting it off. I also need to sort out contents insurance and pet insurance. I better do it sooner rather than later.

My new contract phone and free 4GB iPod Nano came today! Alex and I decided to get contract phones over the weekend and they came this afternoon. I was more excited about the iPod than the phone but now I’ve actually played with my phone, I’m in love with it. I’m going to use my old phone for a while as I have credit on it still and plus college has my old number and I don’t to miss any calls from them. I’ve spent most of my time today sorting out my iTunes, which took me forever and playing with my phone to get used to it.

I found out today that the proper name for a cable/telephone lead is called a CAT5e. Why do such simple things have stupid names?

My blog will no longer be here, I moved over to Love Duckie.org. I bought the domain from Chenoa and I’ve got it set up over the last two days. I love the name and I think this one will the one. I’m still using this domain for paid blogging and something else but I haven’t quite figured out what for yet. So you’ll still be hearing about the lovely diet pills and video cards, oh and a new one; self defense products! I know you love reading about them as much as I do .

Alex got paid today so obviously I had to go and do a bit of shopping . I left home at about 10.15AM and didn’t get home until 1PM. I don’t know how I managed to be out for that long since I didn’t actually buy that much. I got Meghan a new pair of shoes. She has a really high instep and her current shoes are cutting into her feet as they have a strap across the top. The new shoes I bought her today are a bigger width (from a G to a H, the highest they do) and they are a fully closed shoe so they fit more like a trainer. They’re not actually the kind of shoe I would have her wearing but at the moment, if they’re comfy on her then thats all that matters. I also bought myself some new make-up. I was going to treat myself to this awesome green Urban Decay eye shadow but at £12 I couldn’t really commit to that much. For £12 I bought powder, blusher and two eye shadows, so yeah, when I’m a millionare I’ll spend that much on one eye shadow but for now I’ll stick to the cheaper stuff. I got myself a couple of magazines too as I felt like having a read at the gossip stuff, haha. I only ended up buying one gossip magazine and I got Cosmo too. Its nice to actually buy something that I want for a change.

I’m not too bad this morning. Yesterday I felt like absolute crap coughing my head off and my nose being really blocked along with a headache. I had a nap in the afternoon which made me feel better. Better enough to wash the dishes and actually eat something. I wasn’t up all night coughing last night unlike Tuesday night/Wednesday morning but I woke up this morning and I can’t cough because it really hurts my chest. I’m hoping it goes away soon, whatever it is because I’ve not been feeling well since I quit smoking and its getting a bit old now. If I’m not better by Monday I’ll definitely be going to the doctors.

I’ve finally got The Sims 2 (slightly) working on my computer so I’ve been playing that a lot for the past few days. I’m so pleased I’ve got it back because I really missed playing it. I could still use a new video card because my Sims keep going all liney which it kind of annoying. I’m having fun with me and Alex getting us together (we’re both teenagers living with our parents) and making me an expert in cooking, haha. I can’t wait until The Sims 3. Have you been the previews? It looks so good.

The other day I found this slimming pill called nuphedragen that simulates the feeling that cocaine gives you. For those who don’t know, you can’t eat when you take cocaine. It just makes you lose your appetite. I think thats ridiculous. I’m sorry but I’d rather lose weight the old fashioned way. And I plan on doing so over the next few months. I’ll talk about that another time.

I have a moaning toddler on my knee who needs changing and I think could do with a sleep so I better get going. I’m hopefully going to see my mum for a few hours later on. I haven’t spoken to her properly for days and I miss her .

Dear Meghan,

Here we are. FOUR MONTHS away from you being two years old. How did we manage to get here so fast? I know I’ve said that many times before but seriously, twenty months old? Your not a baby anymore, your a toddler who is independent and needy at the same time. You don’t want to me to play with you or mess with your things yet as soon as I leave your sight or you fall over, Mummy is the person you want. You talk more than ever and if I tell you I don’t understand, you’ll come over to me and tell me again so I can hear you clearly. You like to sit and read your books. Every single page says “My ay” apparently. And every single book too. Your favourite books at the moment are the Mr Men and Little Miss series. All the Little Misses are called “Naughty” and all the Mr Men are “Busy” but you can’t tell most of them apart if I ask you where, say, Mr Sneeze is. You love to sing songs from The Wheels on the Bus to Hickory Dickory Dock to Incy Wincy Spider. You do all the actions too. Your eating slightly better. You’ll eat chicken now, when you feel like it and mash potato is something you will now eat. Pasta isn’t on the menu as much as it used to; pizza has replaced it. You had pizza three nights in a row last week without me even realising. I need to do something about that.

Well Meg, this is about it. I’m currently dying of some hayfever, coughing fit, thing and all I want to do is get into a hot bath and then crawl into bed with my new best friend, Big Brother 9. Your not very well at the moment either. Your suffering from the same horrible illness which is why today there are no photos. I didn’t think you’d appreicate it in fifteen years when I have photos of you with puffy red eyes and a runny nose.

Love you as always,

Mummy

I’m sorry for going MIA over the past four days but my interest in the internet and blogging just seems to be dying. I’ve been feeling rather miserable for the last few days and not really wanted to do anything. The no smoking is going really well though which is a good thing. I bought myself some new underwear on Saturday as a treat to myself for getting to a week. I’ve needed some for a while so it was nice to finally get some. I think I’m going to get some more in the next few weeks as I could do with throwing all my old stuff out.

I’m thinking of maybe starting playing World of Warcraft again. I’ll have to wait until Alex gets paid before I can start as my free month will have expired by now. I might start playing with someone and then I get the idea of what I’m actually supposed to rather than just wandering around completely lost. I’ve been looking at video cards recently as I really want to get a new one both for WoW and so I can play The Sims 2 again. Every time I play it, it crashes on me and I know a video card will fix my problem. Sod it, I’m just going to reinstall it. I’ve just seen that you pay via Paypal and I have cash in Paypal from my blogging. At least I’ll have something to do while Alex is at practice tonight! No you can’t, never mind. I hate it when they say you can pay Paypal but you still have to use a card to pay.

Father’s Day yesterday was nice. We all took Alex breakfast in bed at around 10AM. When we all got dressed we went out for a meal to 15 Cairo. We were originally going to go to the Olive Press but it shut after lunch at 2.30PM and we only got into town at 1.45PM and we didn’t want to have to rush. The meal wasn’t too bad this time but the service was a bit poor and they ended up over charging us but we got it sorted out. We then met up with Alex’s brothers and his dad and went for a drink before we had to get the bus home. I got the girls Tiger Woods ’08 for the Xbox 360 for Alex and a key ring. My present hasn’t come yet (I bought it from Amazon) but I hope he likes it. I don’t want to say what it is in case he decides to come on here . It should be here for Wednesday hopefully.

I don’t know if you’ve been looking at my Flickr account but I’ve started on the 365 Days challenge again. Lets hope I can complete it this time.

I think I’m having major nicotine withdrawal along with no money syndrome (I always think of The Incredibles when I say “syndrome”) and I just feel like crap. Plus I’m saying things I shouldn’t and wouldn’t normally say to people which means I better get off and get my arse in bed. My book is waiting for me. Either that or I can watch Walk The Line. We’ll see.

I found myself looking at used Harleys earlier. I have no idea how I ended up there (another reason to come offline right now). My mum’s nextdoor neighbour had a Harley and I always wanted him to take me out on it. I’d still love to have one but I’d probably use it just to look at, haha.

Enough talking crap, Katy. Get in bed. (Alex has got a gig by the way)

I nearly came downstairs at 5.40AM this morning because I had a horrible dream and didn’t want to go back to sleep. The dream itself wasn’t actually that horrible but my reaction to it wasn’t good. In my dream Meghan was screaming her head off (presumably in bed) and I couldn’t find her or get to her. She must have been crying for a while and I just couldn’t get to her. I woke up with a start and got really upset about it. I really didn’t want to go back to sleep after that but I made myself. I think also in the same dream, I had a cigarette and I actually thought I’d had one in real life and I was really upset with myself for smoking after six days of not. I hate dreams where I wake up upset.

Smoking wise, I’m doing fine. I don’t really want one at the moment. I’m not getting many cravings. I think that’s mainly down to the fact that I basically don’t want one as I still have a sore throat and a cough. I must have been more addicted than I thought. I’ve quit numerous times before and never felt like this. I’m hoping I won’t have to go through this again if I can keep the willpower to not smoke. Ever again.

Myself and Amy took Meghan swimming yesterday. I bought her a new Dora the Explorer swimming costume on Tuesday morning since the last time she went swimming was when she was about six months old! She didn’t really like it that much and spent most of the time with her legs and arms wrapped around me so tightly that I could barely move. She pretty much got used to it after a while and started playing with all the toys inside the pool while sat on the top steps. We’re going to go every week with Alex coming on the days he’s not in work and Mum coming when she’s feeling okay. I want her to get used to the water and plus, I miss swimming so much. I used to be a quite strong swimmer but I did six lengths yesterday and I was out of breath and had to swap because I panicked and swallowed a lot of water. My technique is terrible too. Its quite embarrassing since the twelve year old me could swim length after length mainly underwater. I’m hoping I can get myself back up to that in the next few months.

I don’t really talk about my pets much do I? I think most people know what I have but I don’t really speak about them. Well, I have one dog, a beagle called Daxter. He’s three years old, born March 29th 2005. I brought him home from his mummy at the end of May 2005. He’s been a handful. We’ve spent lots of money replacing things he’s destroyed – carpets, CD’s, DVD’s, limited edition box sets, trainers, clothes – and I’ve cried lots of tears over his behaviour. He is a lot better than what he was. He still snatched food off your plate if you give him half a chance. He still barks when someone dares walk past the house and he’s a bit clingy and won’t even let you go upstairs without kicking up a fuss. I wouldn’t be without him though. He’s the best dog ever.

I also have a cat called Jak (if you’ll notice my dog and cat are named after the PS2 game Jak and Daxter) who is one year old. I don’t know his exact birth date so I call his birthday 16th April 2006. He was a birthday present from Alex to me last year. He’s a mixed breed and he’s pure white. He’s also very small. Compared to my parents cat’s, he’s still a kitten. He’s very affectionate, especially towards me. This is what I missed about having a cat. Dax isn’t one for letting you stroke him or coming sitting next to you. He really liked to be left alone where as Jak wants to constantly be with me. He’s a proper mummy’s boy!

We also have a hamster called Snowball. He’s actually Emelye’s hamster. We’ve had him since a week before Meghan was born as it was Emelye’s present so she wouldn’t get too jealous about having a baby around taking the attention away from her. We don’t pay him as much attention as we should but I try and make it so I at least go and talk to him once a day.

I found this website called ZooToo.com thats a pets social network. Its basically where you go and sign up and then spend your whole time there talking about how great your pet is! I’ve just signed up but I don’t have anything added to my profile yet (I’m deathbyduckie on there) but the website looks pretty good. You can query all your pet health questions there and get other peoples opinions on any thoughts you may have. You can post journals and things too. Its pretty cool. I think tomorrow I’ll have a proper look through it and see what else you can do on there.