Stolen/Borrowed from Zoot.

Go to Google and type in your name followed by “last I heard he/she” and post what you get.

• Last I heard, she was living in Tyler, TX
• Last I heard she was living in Salford – I hope not
• Last I heard, she was somewhere in Aja – I’m in a lot of different places arn’t I?
• Last I heard she was going to the USA to live – Once again, I hope not. No offence I’d just rather stay here.
• Last I heard, she was organizing a student boycott of multiple-choice exams – Hahaha
• Last I heard she was knocked up not long after we left Maryland – Well I am knocked up but I’ve never been to Maryland
• Last I heard she retired from acting and now raises horses – I wouldn’t mind that
  

At the hospital today, my date for induction was booked. If she’s not here by the 13th (which happens to be a Friday, Ashley’s birthday, the day after Emelye’s birthday and the night Alex has a gig) I have to go into hospital at 8AM to be induced. I really don’t want to be so I have my fingers tightly crossed that she’ll make her appearance before then. The doctor asked if I wanted her to do a sweep (I think thats what she said) today but I told her no. I don’t want to be messed with unless I really have to be. She’ll come when she’s ready whether thats tomorrow or in ten days.

I didn’t manage to move everything around in Meghan’s bedroom until yesterday as I’ve been very uncomforable the past couple of days. I still have tons of clothes to organise, the cot needs putting up and there is still lots to do but at least her room looks like a bedroom now. All I need now is a baby to put in it . I didn’t do any of the other things I said I was going to do but I have just finished up a list for my hospital bag which I’m going to get started on after I’ve finished on here. You know, just incase she decides that todays the day.

I saw the midwife today – my last appointment before my due date. Meghan is fully engaged and her heart rate has slowed down due her not moving as much as she has done in the previous weeks. She hasn’t changed position in about four weeks now. Her back is always to the left and her bum in the middle at the top. The midwife doesn’t think I’ll go much past my due date which I’m also hoping as I don’t want to be induced at all. I have a hospital appointment tomorrow afternoon and then the next midwife appointment a week tomorrow. Hopefully I don’t make it to that one.

There’s not very much I can say at this point that I haven’t already said. Her bedroom is now decorated. I started to wash her clothes yesterday. Today will be spent tidying her room up and putting things where they should be. Tonight I want to do a little rabbit cross stitch that I have for her and maybe, maybe, finish off that Newton’s Law one I have almost finished. I plan to do as little as possible from now on. If I go out, I will try and keep it to under an hour – just incase. I’m getting quite excited – and also scared – about becoming a mum now. Theres a big difference in being pregnant to actually having a baby. There are a few non-baby related things I’m so looking forward to though:

• Not being kicked in my bruised rib. It really hurts. The poor thing needs to heal.
• Being able to sleep on my stomach.
• Being able to lean down/lift my legs up to get dressed.
• Getting my figure back so I can wear clothes I like rather than clothes that fit.

My mum thinks I may be in slow labour. I’ve had backache constantly for about three days now and I’m also getting cramps in my stomach and legs every now and again. I’ve just spoken to Suzi on the phone and she said her mum had backache for four days and then she had her. My nan also suffered with backache for a while and then had my mum not long afterwards. Tomorrow I need to wash all of Meghan’s clothes, pack my bag and go and get the last bits and peices that I need to buy because otherwise I’m not going to have everything done in time. Alex did say she would be born this week. Maybe he’s right. I’m not holding my breath because I know I’m more likely to be late than early but I need to get everything prepared.

Alex stripped the wallpaper in Emelye’s bedroom yesterday. Last night we painted one of the walls and we finished the rest of it off today. Its so nice to get her room done. It was such a mess. The wallpaper was ripping off the walls and the actual wallpaper was just awful. Alex’s grandad came round today and did the walls for us and we’re painting Meghan’s room tomorrow. I’ll be so glad when we’ve finished decorating. Upstairs is a mess and I can’t do anything about it and its really getting to me. I’ll post pictures tomorrow night.

Its my friend Caz’s 19th birthday today and she invited me along to a family dinner at a chinese buffet restaurant. I ate so much food and it was so nice. I would never have thought of going there otherwise as I have a thing about chinese places. I don’t know why, I just do. I had strawberry cheesecake with ice cream for dessert. And then some more ice cream. Obviously the cheesecake was for me and the ice cream was for Meghan. Obviously. Anyway, I plan to go there with Alex on our first time out together once Meghan’s here. I’m thinking it will be after Christmas because I’m paranoid about leaving her now and she’s with me 24/7.

Caz lives with her boyfriend and his family but we went round to her mums house to drop two of her sisters off and since her mum has given me SO many baby clothes, I thought I’d go in a say thank you. I’ve not seen her youngest sister yet who was born in April and she’s so gorgeous. Her mum asked me if I would like a hold of her before I left and I couldn’t say no. Since I found out I was pregnant, I have not been around any babies and its about time I did. With all my friends being younger than me – and me only being young myself – none of my friends have children. I could have done with a bit of practice but its a bit late for that now!

Alex stripped the wallpaper off the walls in the baby’s bedroom today. I wanted to start painting it tonight but there are bits of plaster that have come off so I’m gonna have to wait until his grandad comes and covers up the gaps before I can start. I so just want to get it done. I’m already sick of our bedroom being a mess because of all of Meghan’s stuff. While Al was doing the bedroom, I sorted through half of her clothes putting them into piles of things that I want and things that I don’t want. All of the stuff I don’t want is either because its looking a bit too worn or its more of a boys item of clothing. I think I’m just going to take all the clothes I don’t want to a charity shop sometime soon. I feel bad getting rid of things people have given me but I’ve been told to get rid of anything I don’t want.

Who would have thought that these past thirty eight weeks have gone past as fast as they have? She could come anytime now. Anytime at all. She could decide to make an appearance today – please don’t, let me do your bedroom first. I’m getting quite nervous about going into labour. Not the actual labour itself just it beginning when I’m not prepared. I’d love a warning about two days before hand just so I can prepare myself. Maybe three kicks to the left and three to the right just to let me know your on your way out soon eh Meghan? I don’t know if I’ve already done the whole nesting thing and just missed it or I haven’t had it yet but at the moment I’m too tired to be bothered with all that stuff. Getting up and down every two minutes to go to the toilet is tiring enough for me. I have managed to clear out the babies room this morning though. I’ve been saying I was going to do it for the past two/three weeks so its about time I did. All I’ve done is move it all into mine and Alex’s bedroom but at least we can move round to decorate it now. Plus the furniture is coming some time today. I can’t wait to see it. I’ve just took Karen’s word for it that its nice so I’m hoping her version of nice is the same as mine . This and this is what the bedroom looks like at the moment but we are getting a start on it tonight so in the next few days it should hopefully look a lot more pink and a lot more baby friendly.

When I went shopping at Mothercare with my mum on Wednesday I spent a little bit too much money. I didn’t go mad with the clothes though, I bought mainly stuff that I needed – nursing bra’s, bath stuff, raincover for the pram. I just got a few sleepsuits, some socks and a gorgeous white and pink coat for winter. I realised when I was in there that the only thing she doesn’t really have is a coat and with her being an autumn/winter baby, she really could use one! We also went to Borders and I got this book on breastfeeding. I’ve read three chapters up to now and pretty good. I just know that I won’t get the help that I need from the NHS so I wanted to get something I could refer to if they end up proving me right.

Alex had a gig on Thursday night and I went to it. I haven’t been to one of his gigs since about May as they have all been out of Warrington, or at places I’d never set foot in. I can’t stand the place it was at this time either but I knew it wouldn’t be busy so I thought I’d go. He makes me so proud when I see him play. He didn’t do as well as he usually does but he still impressed me. I was glad to get out of there once he’d finished though. I’m too pregnant to be bothering with going to gigs haha.

As you might have been able to tell, I was having bandwidth problems. It wasn’t due to the fact that I had a mad rush of hits (which would have been nice), it was because I uploaded a picture for Alex to use to promote his band on myspace. I forgot to realise that he posts bulletins, messages and hundreds of comments so he ate up all my bandwidth (he had no idea what I was on about when I tried to explain what I meant). I owe Ashley loads of thanks for giving me some more so I can have my site back.

I’m extremely hot at the moment. And not hot as in sexy. Hot as in sweaty and uncomfortable. I bet you love that image in your head don’t you haha. I’m sorry. But it has been way too hot for the middle of September today. I thought the heatwave had disappeared but obviously not. I’m hoping it goes away soon though because I can’t cope with it. It was bad enough back in July but now I’m ready to pop and the heat just doesn’t feel any better.

You’ll never guess what I’ve done today? BABY SHOPPING! I’ve just realised that I told you that I was going yesterday so its not really that big of a suprise is it? Anyway, I went with my mum and Amy to start buying things for Meghan. It felt so good. And the fact that I didn’t even have to add anything up as I went along was even better. I also got a few things for Emelye so she wouldn’t feel too left out. I love buying Em clothes. The fact that she doesn’t have that many here either makes me want to buy more. I didn’t buy any furniture as yesterday one of Karen’s friends friends (mouthful) is getting rid of two wardrobes and a chest of drawers from her daughters bedroom and Karen managed to get them for us for nothing. I really am lucky at the amount of things that have been given to me. I got the paint for her room though – a baby pink – and I also got Emelye some for her’s. Her room is the worst in the house and really needs decorated so it didn’t seem fair to be doing the baby’s room when she’s not even going to be in there for a while and not do her’s. I got quite a few bits and peices for the baby including this crinkly mouse which is so cute. I got some stuff for me too for when I go into hospital and for afterwards. I’m going out with my mum again tomorrow morning to Mothercare and maybe go to a few other shops too. I love shopping for Meghan. I’m trying to be good where buying clothes is concerned but its very hard .

I haven’t mentioned it before because its been worrying me but Alex and I took Daxter to the vets tonight as he has a lump on his leg. There’s good news; its just a lump and nothing to get worried about. And there’s bad news; it needs to be removed and its going to cost £110. This is the reason they throw GET PET INSURANCE down your throat. I should be able to get help from the PDSA which will help a lot. Its a lot of money but I don’t mind paying for it. If it needs to be removed then it needs to be removed. At least its nothing major. I don’t know what I’d do without Dax now.

I’m back again. No I didn’t go into labour, yet. I just had my internet cut off. It was my own fault - I didn’t pay the bill. Obviously you know from my last post the money situation so I couldn’t pay it on time. Anyway, its sorted out now and I’m back on – thanks to my mum who shouldn’t bail me out as much as she does but I do appreciate it. I’m so glad to be back online though. Being stuck in the house all day with nothing on TV but talk shows and auction programs is extremely boring. I missed you internet!

We also now have food in, quite a lot actually. Enough to tide us over until about Saturday which is good since the longer it lasts us, the better. We are also finally getting the money for Meghan tomorrow which means I am finally going to go baby shopping! I’m so happy. I’m getting her nursery furniture and paint for her room tomorrow hopefully so I can get started on that. We’ve been given a cot from one of my nanas friends so we don’t have to buy one of those, just a mattress. I have a big list of things I need to get but it won’t take me too long to get it all. I wish I could drive so I could do everything all in one go. Theres so many places I want to go but I hate asking my mum to take me everywhere. She does enough for everyone else as it is.

I’m 37 weeks pregnant and very uncomfortable. My back has been really bad all day and I’m getting what I can only describe as burning pains in my ribs at the top. She’s pushing low down now though so I get the feeling she just wants to GET OUT! The feeling is very mutual haha. Wait until Thursday at least but after then I should have enough of the things I need for you and then you can come whenever you feel like it. Alex reckons I’ll be early. He thinks she’ll come next week. I’d love her to be born in September.

I really feel like I’m rambling on and on… and on so I’m just going to end things here. I need to wash the dishes, make some dinner and walk Dax so I really should get my arse off the computer. I can’t wait to go out tomorrow .

Yes I am. I’ve just sat here for the past forty-five minutes doing an ‘imaginary’ food shop online at Tesco’s. You know, because when I feel like crap, I like to shop. Doesn’t matter what I’m buying as long as I’m buying something. Since our funds are currently at zero I am now doing these imaginary shops. The fact that we have no food in the fridge/freezer/cupboards made me want to do a big food shop. And you know what? I didn’t even spend that much. I just ‘bought’ the things I’d usually get and then some other bits that I’d love to have if we had the money. Its crap that I can’t do anything about it. I might head along to Amazon and see how much I’d spend there haha.

Alex is in town once again sorting the Job Centre out. They didn’t pay us again today. I’m sick of talking about it and I’m not even angry this time because I was expecting it. We need to get something sorted out though because we can’t/won’t keep going into town every two weeks to try and sort this shit out. Alex went at 11.30 and he’s not back yet. I can’t ring him because I don’t have a phoneline at the moment but I hope he has the money and is just at the practice room. I also hope he brings some food home for me because I’m starving.

I might go and have a cup of tea. That might make me feel a bit better. Life better get better in the new year or I’m going to be very mad at somebody. Don’t know who that it is yet but I’ll find someone to take that anger out on.