Alex is helping his cousin move again today. He came home for the night last night along with a new bed for us, a bookcase, a stereo and a couple of CD stands for absolutely nothing as Lee (his cousin) was just going to throw them out. The bed is so comfy plus because the mattress is so firm and thick, its a lot easier for me to get out of bed as its higher up. At the moment, anything that makes it easier for me to get up is fantastic . The bookcase is something I have been needing for so long. The one I currently have was here when we moved in and its awful. It only has four shelves and one of those is missing which means it doesn’t house all my books. I’m going to be swapping my books from one to the other later on and also putting all our CDs in those new stands. I love getting new things for the house even if they are second hand.

When Alex got home last night, I was sat on the couch and he came over to give me a kiss and Dax jumped inbetween us and fell right on my bump. I got so scared. Meghan’s perfectly fine though. She gave me a good kicking for half an hour after that. Dax worries me sometimes. I think he wore himself out whinging yesterday though because he’s been asleep for the past two hours. He would sleep now when I’m going out in a bit though wouldn’t he. I’d rather him sleep when I’m out.

I have a midwife appointment at 1.45PM. My mum is taking me since Alex won’t be back until about dinner time. For the past week or so I’ve had to sit up perfectly straight because I feel like she has her feet underneath my ribs at the top. If I lean down it just hurts. My backs bothering me still but not as bad as it was when she was laying across me. I’m not feeling very attractive at the moment either. I try to make an effort in the mornings but most of the time, I just can’t be bothered. With my morning sickness returning, it takes me up until 11AM for me to feel okay enough to get dressed and get started on the housework or whatever so putting make-up on or doing my hair comes last. As long as I don’t look a state and I don’t smell, I’m happy to leave the house haha. I’d love to get my haircut before she’s born though. I’d like to look at least half-decent in the pictures after she’s born .

I didn’t mention it but two weeks ago on the way to the midwife, I twisted my ankle on the bus. Alex told me to sit down until it stopped and I didn’t listen so I fell down the step at the back and twisted my ankle. I didn’t tell Alex until we got into the doctors because I thought he’d have a go at me for not listening to him. He didn’t but I’ll definatly listen to him next time because now I’m still in pain and I can’t walk very far. My mum wanted to take me to the hospital but its not that bad I just need to rest more. Silly me eh?

It was nice to see such a response to my blog about AP by the way .

I’ve just watched a program on TV about attachment parenting and I have to say, some people are so strange. I know this was showing the extremes of AP and most people who use it are a lot more laid back but these people were just crazy. There is nothing wrong with putting a baby in a pram or letting it sleep in its own bed. I’ve always wondered what AP was about but its not something I’ll be getting into.

I actually got some housework done today. I got woken up by Alex’s mum at 9AM saying Alex’s auntie wanted him to help her move some stuff in her house. So much for the lie in I planned on having. Alex went and did that and after an hour or so on the couch trying to stop feeling sick, I cleaned the kitchen. Alex got back and cleaned the living room and then we sat and playing Kid Chameleon on the mega drive . Alex has gone to his cousins tonight to help him move house. You’d think he doesn’t like being here the amount of times he’s been staying out recently haha.

I watched Kalifornia last night. Alex said it was good and we were looking for something to watch. I really enjoyed it. Its so good. Plus I love Brad Pitt in films where he looks really rough looking – especially Snatch.

As you may notice I’ve actually spent some time today redoing this theme like I said I was going to. I was going to make it pink but I changed my mind. It looks better anyway.

35 weeks today and feeling pretty much fed up of being pregnant. I can’t get comfortable unless I lie flat. I’m tired again (but I think that might be to do with having no iron tablets left). I’m really going to miss being pregnant when she’s here though. I’ve not had a terrible pregnancy. Apart from the normal aches and pains, I’ve been fine. I’ll still be glad when its over though. Five weeks isn’t that long to wait.

The wedding on Wednesday was nice. I can’t stand weddings, they’re just boring to be honest but this one was alright (I’ve only ever been to two haha). After the actual wedding we had the meal which was four courses. I don’t think I’ve ever eaten so much in my life! I was so tired after it and we left not long after the meal had ended. Alex went to band practice and Aimee picked me up from home and I went back to hers for a few hours. Her mum had a couple of friends round and she’d put some food on for everyone. I had a really good time. I couldn’t eat much but what I did eat was nice .

I haven’t done anything today. I’ve been feeling sorry for myself and my backs been hurting so I’ve not wanted to do anything. Alex had a gig in Blackburn this afternoon and now he’s gone round town with his mates. Yesterday he said he wanted tonight to be our night in but he’s going out now. I’m not bothered to be honest. Just pissed off that I can’t go out. I was invited but theres just no point me going into town in pubs where its smokey and I can’t drink. We’ll have our night in tomorrow. Amy’s come round to spend some time with me so I’m not on my own.

Speaking of Amy, she’s opened a blog – City Life. Go and say hello to her.

I’m just gonna stop blogging… Everytime I finally get a go of the internet (this is without anyone looking over my shoulder), I can’t remember what I wanted to blog about and when I do remember, there’s so much that I just can’t be bothered writing it all out. In other words, this will be a very short blog – about a sentance or two longer than it is now – and I’ll try again tomorrow when I have the house to myself.

Had my scan yesterday. My little girl is fine. She’s also still a little girl which is nice to know. Stupid male doctors don’t know anything.

 

 

Guess where we’ve been again today? The Job Centre. And guess why? Because our money wasn’t paid in. Again. I can just see it being like this every second Tuesday now. Its pissing me off so much. And Alex, which is why he’s decided not to go to college now, he’s just going to work instead. I’m sick of being in that place and getting no where. We were only there for about an hour today but thats not the point. We shouldn’t have to go at all because our money gets paid directly into our bank account. They better not do it next time.

I’m going to a wedding tomorrow. I went to the hen party/meal on Friday (which I forgot to mention) of the girl who’s getting married. I went with Karen (Alex’s mum) and she was the only person I really knew there. I’m not really up for going to this wedding but I bought a lovely outfit to wear today. The top I bought is the first thing I’ve bought in maternity that I’ve actually got because I liked, not just because it fit me. I can’t wait to wear it because it makes me feel so nice.

There was more I wanted to say but The Godfather is on and I really want to watch it.

Alex got back at 3.10AM last night. I managed to stay up until about 1AM and then I just had to go and get in bed. Its so nice to have him at home. I can’t believe how much I’ve missed him when he’s only been away for two days. I didn’t manage to get the house tidy for when he got back. Well I did but then I made dinner and didn’t do the dishes afterwards and it looks a mess. I plan on doing it once I’ve finished on here.

Alex and I went into town this afternoon just for something to do. He had some money left from the festival so we got a couple of DVD’s – Flight Plan and Football Factory. We watched Flight Plan when we got home. Its quite good. I’ve wanted to watch it for a while. We’ll watch Football Factory when Alex gets home from practice. We saw it the other week on TV and its great.

Almost there and still no stretch marks. How lucky am I? I have my first antenatal class two weeks before I’m due so I’m hoping she stays where she is so I have chance to at least learn something and have a look around the hospital. Hopefully I can do all my shopping soon, just waiting for this money to go through. My nana has managed to get me a cot for nothing, I just have to buy a mattress for it which is fantastic. That saves at least £100. I haven’t mentioned it before but Alex sold two cymbals on ebay on Friday. After he’s put the money back into the rent that he took for V we’ll have around £90 left to spend on the baby so we’re going to do the nursery. I really didn’t think we’d be able to decorate it but I’m so pleased that we can now. Now I just have to figure out what colour to paint the walls and what flooring I want!

Amy’s been staying with me while Alex has been away. I wouldn’t have minded being on my own but I’m glad she’s been staying. Its nice to spend some time with her. I don’t see her as often as I’d like to anymore. Its just a shame we didn’t have any money to do anything. Once I have some I’m gonna take her to Manchester for the day. It’d be nice if we can go before Christmas so I can get presents and go clothes shopping.

I’m sure there was loads I wanted to write about but now I can’t remember any of it. I’m gonna carry on cleaning the house now anyway. I want it to look nice for when Alex gets home. He cleaned the house from top to bottom when I went to Suzi’s so I think its only right I do the same for him.

Today was the first day that I actually felt like I’ve got somewhere at my midwife appointment. I had a different midwife than I usually have but she was lovely. I really felt like I could talk to her about anything. I told her about me wanting a water birth and she said I just have to tell the hospital when I go in and as long as no one is using the birthing pool (which she said people rarely do) then I can have the water birth. I really hope I can. I also asked her about the classes and she’s going to ring me tomorrow to sort them out for us so I should have those soon. As soon as she felt my stomach she commented on what a good size I am. I told her about the growth scan I have to have and when she measured me, I’m measuring exactly 34 weeks. She told me not to listen to what the doctor said because ‘He doesn’t know anything.’ She said OB’s are so used to seeing big babies that when they get a normal sized one, they expect something to be wrong. Meghan has turned round and she’s now head down which is fantastic. Add that with the cramps I’ve been getting the past week or so and I’m guessing she can’t wait to get out. As long as she stays put for at least three weeks until I buy everything for her, she can come early for me! I have the scan next Thursday and then I see the midwife again the following Wednesday. After that I’ll have four and a half weeks left which is quite scary. I can’t believe how fast the pregnancy is going now. It felt like it was taking forever in the beginning.

I went into college after going to the midwife to try and sort out what happened to my results. I don’t know whether I mentioned it or not but everyone got their results just over a week ago and I didn’t get mine. I was told today that my results have gone to my old address and the only way to get them back is by either going to my old address or to the post office to see if they have been returned there. If not then I’ll have to pay £30 to get the certificates reprinted. I had my results printed off on a peice of paper though so I finally know what I’ve got – Merit Pass Pass. I’m so happy. Considering I was hardly in, got kicked off the course and missed a month before I got back onto it, I think I did really, really well. I was only expecting three pass marks. I know if I’d have tried a lot harder I could have got something a lot better but I’m happy with what I did get.

Fancy helping me out a bit? I’ve wanted a Nintendo DS for… well since before they came out and I’ve found a website where you can get one for free by referring people. I only need six people to sign up to it and complete an offer and then I’ll get one. It won’t cost you anything, just sign up and go with the Screen Select offer then cancel it before the 30 days are up. You’d be doing me a massive favour. Email me if you do sign up so I can send you big thank yous .

My little sister turned sixteen today. I don’t care how old she is, she’s still my little sister. I don’t like her being all grown up, leaving school and going to college. She still should be four years old and following me around everywhere, annoying me. Instead she borrows money and steals all my tops that don’t fit me at the moment. The worst part of today is that I can’t even manage to get her a card and she’s not bothered. She should be bothered. If I can’t even manage to get her a birthday card but I can buy my boyfriend a tattoo, what kind of sister am I? My dad is taking her (and my mum) out for a meal tonight to TGI Friday’s and I was hoping I could go with them just to spend some time together as a family but I’m not invited. My dad has just said no, I can’t go and not given any reason as to why not. I don’t know what I’ve done wrong but I’m always seen like this in my dad’s eyes. I’m trying to not let it get to me but its not working. I was hoping I could spend the night with Aimee instead but she’s not too well so she’s going home straight after work. I really don’t want to be on my own tonight but there’s no one else I could ask to come round really. Alex has band practice on Wednesday nights. He’ll be back by 10PM but it just seems like such a long time when I’ve been stuck in the house all day as it is.

I’m talking a load of shit so I’m just gonna go. Sorry for rambling.

Alex’s brothers and his best friend are going to V Festival this weekend and Alex has been wanting to go but we’ve not had the money. He’s managed to get hold of a ticket though so now he’s going which means I have the house to myself from Friday afternoon until Sunday afternoon. I would have liked more notice so I could plan something to do and maybe get some money together but never mind. Its not really a festival I want to go to (I’d much rather go to Download) so I don’t feel like I’m missing out – apart from Lily Allen and Fat Boy Slim.

I need to start doing things in the day because being the house constantly is really driving me insane. I’m thinking about things way too much which is making me very emotional. The only reason I don’t go anywhere at the moment is because I don’t have any money. I can’t even get on the bus to anywhere because I can’t afford it. It was better when I lived at our last house before Christmas because we were a ten minute walk from town so I could go out for a few hours if I felt like it. I might see if Aimee wants to do anything tomorrow if she’s not working just so I get out.

My backs started hurting again. It went away for about five days but its back again which means Meghan’s back laying across me. Wonderful. She’d better turn so her heads down in the next few weeks otherwise we will be having problems. I’m gonna finish off watching Big Brother, make a cup of tea and get in bed. Getting in bed is the best part of my day . Sad isn’t it?